Change Ahead.

I quite often ponder the reality of my loss of friendships. Maybe everyone is taking their own paths so much so that I am forced to realize my own path. I've lost a few friends over the past few years. Some openly, but most silently. I spend most of my days planning out my dreams to make them real. The closest friends I have are the friends that happen to be miles and miles away. Yet those dear friends in this same town remain in my heart. The ones I do happen to see every now and then are becoming more and more busy each day, allowing me to slowly let go.

Perhaps the meaning behind this lies within the plan that God is now unfolding. Maybe my relocation is a fact. I do indeed see myself leaving this small little town. At last minute I have allowed myself to appreciate it to its fullness. I don't think I'd ever be able to fully do so if I never decided to leave it. As I spend my last few months here, I will learn to be thankful for what it has brought me. I will detach myself slowly from the things I held on to, and open my eyes to new opportunities.

There has always been somewhere else I longed to be. But when I really thought about it, I never have been able to escape. And I guess it's time I finally do so. To find my place in this world and become what God wants me to be. It may not be easy at first. It may require a lot of energy and change. But you must start somewhere otherwise you'll get nowhere.

So here I am, chasing my dreams, and gaining new ones along the way. I may not know what exactly lies ahead for me, but I trust that God will lead me. This is going to be a huge step for me. I am excited and more ready for it each new day. There is going to be a massive change in my life this year. But the crazy part about it all...is that I feel more than ready for it.